Wednesday, February 5, 2014

The Face Of Depression Is NEVER Ugly #DayOfLight

This is the face of Depression. 

I think I was thirteen the first time someone said that word to me. My parents had "concerns" because I had been withdrawing. I learned very quickly after that how to hide behind masks and avoid this concern. 

Depression has been a long time companion of mine and along my journey I have met some amazing people that know her too. There have been many times in my life that the words, "Me too" have saved me. My most recent experience with depression was one of them. 

After I had my youngest son in 2012, I fell flat on my face in what I can only describe as an emotional abomination. I felt broken, alone, and scared of my own thoughts. I hated myself because of them and spun in a circle of defeat. I found some blogs about depression and felt less alone. The words I read pulled me up very slowly. I found the courage to write down my own and I found freedom. 

The amazing blogging community saved my life. They took me under their wings and encouraged me every day to speak my truth until it didn't feel ugly anymore. The face of depression is NEVER ugly. It's the feelings of despair, the secrets we hide behind beautiful smiles, and all the lies we tell ourselves that are ugly. 

So, today I share my truth alongside many of the amazing women that helped me out of my darkness. Today I celebrate a Day Of Light and help to break the silence that Depression wants me in. If you are struggling, please know that you are not alone. Please know that there is hope. Please believe that you are beautiful, powerful, and worth it. 

Please let someone help you. 

10 comments :

  1. Alexandra ElizabethFebruary 5, 2014 at 12:39 PM

    Thank you for sharing your story. I too have suffered from depression and have found such a great sense of community through blogs and the people behind them. It can feel impossible to open up, but the benefits are incredible. I hope through sharing our stories the stigma behind depression can disappear.

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  2. I'm clapping for you with the enthusiasm of a thousand The Price is Right audiences.

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  3. I'm celebrating with you Julie, and celebrating the fact that you are paying it forward and being that amazing woman who helps someone else out of the darkness.

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  4. This is beautiful Julie... truly. SO many suffer from this horrible disease... and knowing they are not alone is key. I know many loved ones who constantly battle it, and I love that there are people and voices out there to reach out and help them!!

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  5. Thinking of you and all of those suffering from depression. It has been in my family, too. It needs to come out of the closet so people will know they aren't alone and so society learns how to help. Bravo!

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  6. Thank you so much for being so open and honest. Not always an easy thing to do. I know that there is an amazing community of bloggers out here and I am so glad that you found a supportive group of them to help you. I know I have my moments with depression. I always have. I went through an awful time after my son was born in 2004....so bad that I don't remember the first four months of his life. I'm going to follow you around now so I can keep up. I think you and I have some things in common.

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  7. Me too. Thank you for your beautiful words. xo

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  8. I was working on a "Sick Secrets" post about my brother in law for Hump Day, but just didn't have it in me to finish it. Because of your words, I hope to be able to post it next week. Depression isn't ugly, it can be the sickest secret of all. Thank you for sharing yours.

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  9. Thank you for sharing and hooking up to the Hump Day Hook Up

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